I really wish I were better at being awesome. I vaguely remember a time when I actually kept in contact with all my friends on an extremely regular basis, and kept myself updated via blogs, etc. I stopped checking blogs on a regular basis at least a year ago I think, which is sad. The problem is that there simply got to be too many. I tried using various tracking mechanisms, but the fact of the matter is that it takes too long. Now when I do remember to check them, I read all the crazy things that have been happening to people and feel sad that I didn't already know about them.
Generally I feel like crap about myself lately, because I suck at helping people, and I suck even more at doing things when they need doing, and I complain a lot, and people like me anyway and I think they shouldn't, but that just makes me sound all self-pitying and self-deprecating, both of which I am, both of which are sucky things to be.
Thusly I feel like moping, but I don't have time to mope because I have a file system API due a day and a half from now, 5 geology labs to finish by wednesday, and finals on wednesday, thursday, and friday. People are coming to visit me thursday through monday-ish and my apartment is a wreck. Completely out of money with which to pay rent, when the time comes. Mom's going in for surgery again on the 31st, which should go without a hitch, and makes it so she doesn't have to do chemo between now and then (a nice thing, chemo sucks). This is certainly not a bad thing, but it is yet another thing on my mind this week.
I swear, some day I will make a blog post about something happy.
OOh! I have something happy. Geofrey Sanders is now happily married off, and I got to go to his wedding in Chubbuck, Idaho. It was very pretty, and they were very happy, and I quite liked the service. The trip as a whole was pretty tiring (two 12-hour drives in something like 36 hours can do that), but very fun. Went with Sharon, Cameron, and McHarg, and there were good times. My favorite moment -
"are you by any chance couples?" - photographer
"no." - all four of us simultaneously
"well, that was very definitive."
I lol'd. And now I have managed to waste nearly half an hour blogging instead of coding. Go me.
