mood++

I hanged out with peoples this afternoon, under the pretext of party planning-ness. When I got home, I did fun active type things with my sisters, and felt more... alive :)

I even feel much less sick now.

Just to let you know.

Meh.

I've been avoiding posting because I've been particularly mopey lately, and I hate posting when I'm mopey. It inevitably ends up sounding whiny and self-centered. Not that blogging is ever not self-centered, but the whiny bit is always an unpleasant thing to encounter. Here's the jist:

I'm sick, and have been for the past few days. Partially because I ignored a sore throat that'd been hanging about for a few days, and did a bunch of loud karaoke on christmas night. Apparently stripping all of your throat's defenses like that hampers your immune system. I'm not sure what I've got, but it sure as heck does not feel pleasant.

Home is crowded and very messy, as per the usual arrangement, and I was already cranky when I got here, for reasons I don't really care to explain in front of God and everybody. Well, God sure. It's the rest of you I'm worried about.

I haven't been online much, remarkably. When I am, it's usually 1-2 AM. This is because that's when I go to bed, and I get on to check my e-mail right before bed sometimes. I have instead watched more television and movies in the past two weeks than in all of the rest of the year. I feel this is unhealthy. I feel that many things about this vacation are unhealthy, but I haven't really done anything about it. Really I feel quite miserable about life in general right now, for many reasons that are all not good enough.

I need to fix things. A lot of things. Some of them weren't originally broken by me, but it's fallen on me to fix them. I'm woefully unprepared to do so.

Sorry for the length. I've been reading too much lately, and when I do that I tend to get all... vociferous. Or the literary equivalent of that. I normally try to keep it short so you guys don't have to skim and then find something to comment on so you can pretend you read it all... once again I have failed :'(

Some time when I'm feeling better I should come back to this topic and point out the good things about this vacation. Really not feeling it right now.

Have I mentioned...

...how truly awesome it is that I have not one, but TWO friends who are NaNoWriMo winners? I doubt heather ever checks this out, but she's awesomecross, and her book pretty much kicked ass. I have yet to read jeremiah's (will probably wait until after the holidays), but it looked a little darker and more serious from the chapter that I read... I look forward to giving him my review :)

I ran into primrose today, and her little baby. He was adorable. She even acknowledged my existance! It was great. Also today, I ran into terra at safeway, and discovered that beth wilbur has now been married for two years and is having a baby tomorrow. I gave terra my phone number so that beth could contact me (should she wish to do so) and I intend to go visit her as soon as physically possible. I've been feeling a little upset about having no way of contacting her and about hearing nothing for two years, and now I'm just hoping she gets my phone number, and has time to call me at some point in the near future.

The trouble with living is that you can only do it in one place at a time. I wish the world wasn't so big, so people couldn't scatter so efficiently. Then again, the world being big means that when we need to escape... we can.

Tyler stoled my RaR.

Home is an interesting place

But I forgot how much I missed this place. We did a dump run today, which was helpful in the getting rid of trash sort of way. My switch to Safari is complete... the subsequent customizations have not yet been fully implimented.

I realize that I'm not the most active person in the world, and this has always bothered me a little bit, but I'm not motivated enough to do anything about it. It's a conundrum.

Money sucks, when you don't have it. I may need to start looking for a part time job. This might actually help a little with the not being active thing. When I have nothing to do, I... do nothing. When I have something I have to do (and by "have to" I mean Bad Things will happen if I don't) then I get up and do it, and then I'm up, and doing something, and it sort of rolls into me doing other things.

At least that's sometimes how it works... other times I'm just sucktastic.

Surprise!

So I'm going home tonight. Wish I'd known that this morning...

I'm actually heading out with my parents, instead of with rose and benson, because they had an appointment in seattle and wanted to come up and get me, which I thought was sweet. I'm actually looking forward to the trip, which kind of surprised me.

I switched safari. Rather, I'm in the process of switching. I think it may be slightly faster. Not 100% sure on that one. I'll have to figure out how to block images though. I like adblock... a lot. However, the real advantage of firefox (to me) was the extensions. Adblock is the only one I really use though.

However... there are two real reasons that I'm switching. One is that I've long searched for a way to make the tab-switching keyboard shortcut command+arrow instead of ctrl+tab in firefox. I never found it, and in fact I don't even know what the new shortcut is for ff 1.5. Also, in 1.5 something was wrong with my flash plugin. I get sound, but nothing appears on the screen. My solution was to use safari until I figured it out. While doing that, I discovered that the default tab-switching keyboard shortcut for safari is command+arrow. That sealed the deal for me.

It's kinda pretty, too.

And now, for a real live post!

I have no idea why there's so much spacing gunk in that last one. Tables suck. Benson's doesn't look dumb like that, and I know it's not the stylesheets because I took them out.

Anywho. I've made it a point to get up before noon every day this week. Whether or not I actually get dressed and start doing stuff at that point is completely arbitrary. I have a futon! And a printer! Yay for lyz! And yay for nathan! And yay for rose for helping go get the futon! And yay for benson for the use of his vehicle! It's like Christmas came early :)

Suddenly I have an evanescence itch.

*scratches*

Crazy? naaaaaaah.

You scored as River Tam. The Fugitive. You are clever and dangerous, which is a nasty combination. The fact you are crazy too just adds to your charm. They did bad things to you, but you know their secrets. They will regret how they made you. Kaylee (Kaywinnet Lee) Frye 75% River Tam 75% The Operative 69% Inara Serra 69% Zoe Alleyne Washburne 63% Capt. Mal Reynolds 63% Simon Tam 56% Hoban 'Wash' Washburne 56% Jayne Cobb 44% Shepherd Derrial Book 38% Which Serenity character are you? created with QuizFarm.com

*blinks*

People are kinda cool sometimes, and I should stop hiding from them. The internets do not count as social interaction, no matter how you cut it.

I've been reading a few other blogs lately, with an eye more for the general approach rather than the individual post that I'm looking at. I've decided that I kind of like the fact that my blog is vague and a bit aloof at times. I give you a lot of random crap that's kind of mildly interesting... I have no idea why you guys keep coming back, but thanks :)

Went to see hp4 today, with my rose and benson. It was quite time for me to get off my ass and out of the apartment.

Thus far, I know that I have a C+ in both of the classes that I was afraid I would fail. I'm not sure about the other two. I accidentally skipped the final quiz in one of them, so that's kind of worrying... but it wasn't worth all that much of the grade (about 5%), so it should be fine.

Ummm... RaR.

Meep

I worked some cheap hackery, stole from sharon, got some tips from a friend, and the result is the shiny audioscrobbler updates to your right. If there's nothing there, you're seeing the rare instance in which I am not on vash listening to music.

For some reason I haven't been updating this lately. Been suuuuper lazy. Not much to tell really... I started an update like three times, kept coming back and adding a little, but it got lost when I tried to submit it from the living room -.-

Speaking of which! My wireless suckage is really starting to bother me. I've come to expect crappy signal from the living room and the island, but now it's infected my bedroom (a little). That just makes me sad.

I went skiing yesterday, in spite of the fact that Brian didn't get to go because his snow pants up-and-disappeared. I had a really good time, and realized that not skiing for 2.5 years really messes up what skills you had. Rose, and benson, and his parents, are all very cool for being patient with me. I only crashed painfully once, and that was on my face. Fortunately it doesn't look as bad as it feels, and it only feels bad when I wrinkle my nose or turn upside down or smile too big.

I think I shall go home tuesday. My dad's birthday is tomorrow and I feel bad for not going home today, but it would have been stressful, and I didn't think about it until too late. Plus this gives me a little time to find a present :P

I need to do laundry tomorrow, and then spend some time walking around downtown finding present-esque things. Also packing, and calling my father to wish him happy birthday.

Apparently when I don't blog for a while it gets backed up :| Sorry.

Edit: Oh yeah... I was also going to mention that I edited my linkies. It was getting a little long over there.

I may have forgotten to mention...

Finals week is over, and everyone is much relieved and relaxed. This makes our little stack a happier place all around.

I get to go skiing tomorrow, with benson and rose and benson's parents. Brian was going to come along as well, but his snow pants were mysteriously stolen by his father. I was going to learn snowboarding this trip, but seeing as my teacher is no longer going... back to skis it is. It's okay, I like skiing. Snowboarding can wait for another trip.

I finally got around to playing with google.ig, and it's really a pleasing thing. Now I just need to ween people off of livejournal.

Tests Over

Not sure I'll get to sleep tonight. Silly procrastination -.-

TJ helped. Good ideas, yes. Will be much easier to complete now.

Very Cool thing: Growl, with an irssi plugin. As soon as I have time, I will play with that. A lot. I will also play with Growl in other ways, and make it all shiny and nifty.

Other Very Cool thing: Books, via TJ. Having time to read them, too. There is an end in sight, and that is exciting.

Planning on viewing Chronicles of Narnia on friday, at the 7:30 showing at regal. Anyone who feels like joining should. Apparently there's a largish group of people that Brian and I know going.

Things I hate about me:

If you can't stand emo, self-deprecating posts, skip this one. It's been a while since I indulged in the timeless practice of despising the self. These are a few of the things I wish I knew how to change, and don't.

1. Feeling sorry for myself
2. Being unable to combat things that truly intimidate me
3. Cluelessness, especially when people are trying to subtly tell me something and I'm just not catching on
4. Spacing out
5. Being unable to force myself to be active
6. Making excuses to myself when I fail

Ugh. This post belongs in a livejournal or something.

Fun Play Happy

I made a snow angel, then went inside the comm building. A few hours later I came out, and there were six. One of them was little. Soooo cute.

What is it about late nights that make blogging a terribly irresistable thing to do? It doesn't even make you guilty about staying up even later, because it takes so little time that it's not going to make a real difference anyways.

If you're a game admin, and your servers thus far are sensible names for like... real places, and real terms, that make sense in a real way... you can't suddenly start naming them after mythical, unpronouncable gibberish. I'm kind of pissed.

Great Lakes
Banff
Armageddon
Revelations
Utunmo???

(I don't know that that's what he's going to name the new server, but all the ones he liked best were similar in idiocy.)

The situation is much improved

Yay for way long titles.

Okay so like totally feeling like a billion times better. And imagine me saying that really really fast, because I'm kind of saying everything really really fast right now. I really feel much better.

Had the team presentation for that majigger thingy that we made before. You know, the mousetrap-y car-y thinger. I don't think I'm very coherent right now.

Anywho. We did really well with the presentation, the professor thinks we kick all sorts of ass, etc. Now I need to take the test for that class (yay online tests...) and then do the final project. Which is due next wednesday. Which I haven't started.

But Nicky should be home like nowish!! (Yes, here is now designated as "home" for Nicky. I declare it shall be so.)